Hello Joaquín,
Every now and then I remember you and all the admiration I had for you now turned into anger. I guess that's perfectly normal bc that's something women do: we want a man to admire instead of looking at ourselves, at our own potential. This is why I ask you that every time a young woman compliments you, don't let her, you should tell her to look at herself in the mirror instead bc the greatness she sees in you is actually her own potential for greatness and she has the responsibility to make It happen even if It takes her a lifetime bc that's all that matters. This and to love yourself and others, even the ones that hate you. Im trying hard not hating ppl. For every good person there are 6 or 7 that are not... So it's harder to feel good all the time but I'm trying not letting others ruining my day.
Here's a músic to express anger bc it's a necessary feeling as Well:

"moment musicaux op 16 no 4" https://share.google/mTYkQ2UBCChAv7kzRhttps://share.google/mTYkQ2UBCChAv7kzR